Not the place for a eulogy, but here it is

Time went by.  We changed, I changed.  Things change.  

That's what I like to tell myself.  

But I loved you.  I think I did.

You were such a big part of my life then.

I loved the way you made me feel.

Worthy.

Your words were like strands holding me up

When I wanted to fall

Never did I feel that before.

You helped me through so much.

You told me you loved me.

And I believed you did.

But love was not ours.

We both knew.  I think.

There was a forever promise before God.

It was never meant to be and that was okay.

Love is not always meant to be.

It felt cruel in the end.

If I hurt you, I'm sorry.

But I know you were where you were meant to be

In the end.

So many times I wanted to call.

But was afraid of the stirring it might awaken.

So I let it sleep

But you played in my mind in time lost.

Now forgotten.

I like to think that you really loved me too

That "love" was borne in empathy for another soul,

Hurting with a cry that only you could hear.

Only you responded to the murmur.

For this, my soul thanks you.

I am so moved by your passing.

Somehow, I don't have words to adequately express

my gratitude.

I carry you with me in my scars, memories.

Time cannot take that.

Parts I've forgotten, parts I remember

You were a beacon, a light

in my time of trouble.

I will always remember.